Is what i want, what i really want?

I dont read much.. its always like suchh a blah to read.. My friends would go like - u wont regret it, its an ammazing book, its jus like a movie.. Its like i need an initial push to start reading a book, n i wud try to pick a thin book - n my friend once mentioned, "its a novel, not some text book! the longer,the better n more the fun".. n i was like- ya ya, watever.. :P So i make sure the few books that i do read are really nice. There was this time in school where we had to give reviews of a book in 9th standard, and i picked 'alchemist', honestly cos it was small.. n also cos everyone had told me that it was really worth it. Shockingly, i actually enjoyed the so muchh and my thinking was definitely affected by it. It was one of those things which got me thinking about life, purpose of life, why we do the things we do, and so many questions which you know have no answers but you just like wondering about sometimes.. It was a very simple story with just one main underlying message - "If you truly want something, the whole universe conspires to give it to you.."

This simple line got me thinking so much. My interpretation sort of goes like this.. If you truly, really really want something, maybe the universe doesnt give it to you, but you would do anything to get it, sacrifice other things, work really hard for it, which is what really makes you get it. You would make the universe go the way you want, to get whatever it is, if you really want it. If you dint do what it takes to get it, it just means that you dint really want it that much, you jus thought you did. You think you'd be just fine without it also.. It made so much sense and things felt so right about it. It is true, isn't it.. i would do anything it takes if i desparately wanted something n make sure that i do get it. Thats when it waked on me.. so many things i thought i wanted to be or wanted to do and i dint end up becoming or doing.. It was like a wakening to the path of self-realization, how i never actually wanted those things so badly.. Now its just left to me to figure out what is it that im working hard for.. What is it that i really want..